If I can just get quiet and still and go within and listen I can hear the heartbeat of the Universe. I can feel the deep peace that is my true nature. I can sense the oneness of being that is the truth of existence. Yeah, I should probably just get quiet and still and go within and listen more often.
It’s beginning to finally look somewhat like Christmas around my house. We have a tree; my kids and I decorated this evening. We listened to Christmas carols and hung up ornaments. I’m going to bed thinking Not bad for a single mom.
What if it were so much simpler than I had previously thought? What if thought has nothing to do with it? What if I could just breathe, listen for my deeper guidance, and do one thing at a time, with no hysterical interjections from my anxious mind? Sounds like…peace.
Jaded, yet plugging along at this thing called daily life. I want so much to be understood by someone who doesn’t charge me an hourly rate. I’m tired of being tired, tired of being grumpy, tired of being overextended. Every day I write what I’m grateful for, I remember how blessed I am, I give thanks. And, I’m waiting for more. I’m waiting for ease, for connection, for direction. Maybe I shouldn’t wait, but who has the energy to leap up, go out, and manifest a whole new life? I’ll just breathe and see if I can reclaim my sanity.
Training my mind to be content. Not easy, because my previous programming was to always search for what was wrong. Now I look around, and I see faint glimmers of what it means to truly love life, just as it is. Great Spirit, let me love life, just as it is.