All Things in Their Own Time

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It struck me this morning
as I watched myself get really worked up
about the phone call with my teacher
to discuss the pace and sequence of my workshop
that I was asking myself to be ready before I was ready
and the purpose of the call was not to prove my readiness
but to be assisted in getting ready

Why would I ask myself to give birth before the baby is fully gestated?
Doesn’t that sound ludicrous?
And yet this is precisely what I do with my creative endeavors.
I begin sewing and ask myself why I am not an expert seamstress yet.
I sit down to paint a simple watercolor just for fun,
and bemoan the fact that I will never be a Rembrandt.

Isn’t that just silly?
Where did that come from?

I mean, I don’t hold such unrealistic expectations of anyone else…
so why do I do it to myself, and why is it so unconscious?

I guess just becoming aware of this propensity
is the beginning of freedom.
I take a step along the path,
and this next one is a little more conscious than the last one.
This is progress.

Could I treat myself with the same lovingkindness that I offer to my students,
my children, my cats?
Could I be more patient, and give birth when the time is right?

I can’t hurry the transformation of the maple leaf
from green to red
Neither can I hurry the transition of mild autumn
into the chill of winter.
Yelling “GROW!” at a tiny acorn
won’t help it to become a majestic oak.

All things in their own time.
All things in the proper time, space and sequence.
Even my awakening.
Even my homecoming.
Even my journey toward authentic self-love and acceptance.
All things in their own time.

And all is well.

4 responses »

  1. My teacher always says that the Goddess Kali always decides the timing. I’m familiar with the anxiety that can come from wanting something to be ripe before it isn’t- I’m still learning to remember that always in ripe timing is the best and most effortless. Loved this inspiration, Lorien.

    • Ooooh, Kali. Yes, thank you for reminding me. Kali breaks through the BS–I’m a bit afraid of her! And I’m so glad you enjoyed this Diahann; thank you for stopping by and for taking the time to comment. It means a lot.

  2. I like to say, “It’s a process,” as a way of reminding myself, and I seem to need a lot of reminders, that things will unfold in their own time and all I can do is let them! However frustrating THAT process may be šŸ™‚ Thanks for the reminder, “All things in their own time!”

    • So true, it’s a process! I get caught up in fixating on the absence of results, when truly it takes a bunch of little steps to climb a mountain. Thank you for reminding me of the process.

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