I wake up anxious.
We have a meeting
with the realtor.
She walks around the house,
our house.
We talk about selling it,
about me moving out with the kids
to an apartment,
about what that will look like.
I try not to let them see
how deeply triggered I am
by this conversation.
I finally excuse myself,
go upstairs,
cry in the shower.
Life is changing all around me
and I’m holding on
to something that wants to leave.
I long to feel empowered
but I keep looking
in all the wrong places.
I want to be saved
but the inner savior
has fallen silent,
waiting for me
to just get still and listen.
How can I be still
with this discomfort?
How can I trust
that this is unfolding
exactly the way it’s supposed to?
How, in the midst
of the deep grief and pain
can I believe
that these feelings are temporary?
Another dark night begins.
Jan18
All is temporary, all! Hope you are doing ok
Thanks friend. I’m ok. Just feeling sorry for myself.
Stay strong.
Trying. Not feeling very strong today.🙏🏻
Can I help you with anything?
Do you pray? If you do, please send me prayers to nourish my body with good food and adequate sleep. Thank you. 🙏🏻❤️🌈✨
Will do. Stay the course
Thank you, friend. ❤️🙏🏻✨🌈
My absolute pleasure, stay awesome.
Doing my best!
Sometimes our best is good enough. I will continue praying for you
Please do! I will take any and all prayers. I believe firmly in the power of prayer and appreciate very much anyone’s willingness to hold me in their hearts and minds. Thank you! ❤️✨🙏🏻🌈
My pleasure
🌈🙏🏻❤️✨
How are you feeling this beautiful day?
Thanks for asking. Today is so, so. I’m feeling tired, weary even. How are you? 🌈🙏🏻✨