NaPoWriMo 2018, Day 18: Off

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I sit down to write my daily poem with one hour left in this day, and I notice how tired I am.  Here is today’s NaPoWriMo prompt.  It sounds like a beautiful idea and process, but I just don’t have the energy in me right now.  So I’m going off prompt!

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My whole life was turned upside down last July
when my husband told me he wanted a divorce
and it hasn’t flipped upright since then.
I haven’t eaten well, slept well,
or felt truly like myself in a long time.
I have lost mutual friends to the story he told,
and really, would I want them as friends
if they can turn based on one person’s story?
But all the same I miss them
and don’t know what to do with these feelings
of grief, loss and betrayal.
I don’t know what to do with the images
of him making love to another woman,
images in my mind, more real
than anything I could see in a movie theater.
I don’t know what to do with the hopes I had,
hopes to reconcile, hopes to rebuild,
to recommit, to outlast all the trials
and come out standing, stronger, confident
of our love and our bond.
Yes, I haven’t eaten well, slept well,
and I miss closeness with my husband,
in spite of all that he has said and done.
I guess you could say I’m a little “off.”

 

2 responses »

  1. The best thing you can do is being happy again by yourself without the need of him or anybody else.
    It’s not easy, and the pain will be hard on you but is possible and you should try it because just trying will leave you a lot better!

    • Very wise words, friend. Thank you for taking the time to write them. I appreciate your encouragement, and I agree with you…just trying will leave me a lot better. Thank you. ❤️✨🙏🏻🌈

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