A white magnolia called to me
from across the balcony
I breathed in her essence
which attracted the attention
of my students
those closest to me
after the first two
pass it around
and I watched her
in her white purity
passed around the room
giving of her essence
and we all breathed with her
there is no lack
only this moment
can you feel me?
When you think you should’ve done better,
be gentle; allow yourself to try again.
Yes, be honest with yourself
and make clear choices about the next time,
but still, be gentle.
Would you admonish a toddler
for not knowing how to sprint a marathon?
And then I asked myself
What if I chose to own all of my power?
What would that feel like?
How would I move, breathe,
think, speak and act
inside the awareness
that I was standing fully in my power?
I couldn’t answer the question
so I imagined what it would feel like.
Hmm, I said to myself,
maybe this would be even better
than I can imagine right now…
What would it take to act as if
I had fully owned my power?
Move with confidence.
Know what I want.
Forgive and move on.
I’m discovering that at any point in my experience
I can shut down and close off to what is happening
or I can make space for whatever arises.
The first feels tight, constricted, heavy, and sad…
The second feels open, spacious, light and joyful.
So now I just want to make space,
space to be who I am
and for other people to be who they are,
space for the weather to be what it is
and for the temperature of the air
to be precisely what it is—
never too hot or too cold,
but always just right.
My new mantra is
Let there be space for this too.
Try it out yourself and see how it feels.
In the midst of your full-blown daily life,
whenever anything happens big or small,
say to yourself
Let there be space for this too…
and see what happens.
I realized it doesn’t always have to be
quick and dramatic…
sometimes it’s nice to take time.
My modern mind has been raised
on instant gratification
but my ancient heart
has its own rhythm.
All this time my mind
has clamored for attention
as if it’s the only one who matters here.
Meanwhile my heart waits
patiently as ever
trusting that the time will come
when I return to the truth of my being.
You can have whatever you want
but only if you give yourself
permission to have it.
If it isn’t here now,
get still, look inside.
Do you believe
it’s a possibility
that you could really have this thing?
If you really want it,
give yourself permission to have it.
Otherwise you’ll be asking for it
and pushing it away
What do you really want?
Is that so?
Prove to me
you’ve given yourself permission to be happy.
by being happy.
When you are stuck
in doubt and fear
don’t stay there!
Take a deep breath
and reach out to your teachers.
You have them,
Reach out to the ones
who remind you who you really are,
the ones who hold you in the space
of lovingkindness, acceptance, compassion.
If you can’t think of anyone
who can do that for you right now,
then it’s time to do it for yourself.
Reach in to the teacher inside,
the one who remembers
that you have a purpose to live out
in this world of changing weather.
Reach in to the one
who knows how to breathe deeply,
to the one who gives you permission
to be exactly who you are right now,
and who knows how worthy you are
of loving and being loved.
Whether we reach out or we reach in
we will find rest and peace
in the space
of silent, clear awareness.