Category Archives: gratitude

Gratitude, Day 25 of 48: Trust

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Trust…this ability to have no idea what’s happening next
but going ahead and trying anway.
Today I had a chance to practice trust as I created a painting.
Two years ago I had a chance to practice trust
as my marriage fell apart.
Every day I have the opportunity to trust the process of life.
I give thanks to the teachers, mentors and guides
who have shown me that it’s safe to let go and trust.
May you trust the inherent wholeness of your life!

Gratitude, Day 24 of 48: Gratitude

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Yep, I’m grateful for gratitude.

Halfway through this challenge,
and I have to pause to be grateful
for gratitude itself.
I began a gratitude journaling practice
years before my marriage ended,
and had made it a habit
to focus on what was going well
in my marriage,
so I was shocked when
my husband announced it was over.
Turns out he had been doing the opposite,
focusing on what I did that annoyed him.
Although I pleaded with him to step back
and look at the good in our lives,
he had made up his mind
that I was the worst wife ever
and there was nothing I could do about that.
I continued to write in my gratitude journal
as my life fell apart at the seams.
I continued writing in my journal
even as the voices in my head told me
I’d be better off dead.
I continued writing in my journal
as I weathered storm after storm after storm.
I have learned perseverance, strength,
discipline, will, resilience.
I have learned how to put things
into perspective.
I have learned that I don’t need a man
to feel worthy—
I am worthy because I exist.
I survived.
And I attribute a large part of my success
to the mindset I developed
while practicing gratitude.
Thank you gratitude!

Gratitude: Day 23 of 48

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I’ve always been a sensitive person,
wanting to understand myself, my world,
who I am, why I’m here.
I’m glad I found my way to my journals;
I didn’t always have someone readily available
to hold space as I explored the contents of my mind.
This ability to tune into my thoughts and feelings
and put them to words
enabled me to also articulate them clearly to another.
When I can share who I know myself to be with you,
and you can share who you know yourself to be with me,
then we create a space for authentic relationship,
whether we are friends, family, colleagues or intimate partners.
These days I am only interested in authentic connection,
with you, with me, with this world.
Self-awareness made this connection possible.
I am grateful to my teachers who led me to this space
of self-exploration through meditation, therapy,
contemplation, writing, being.
I am grateful to know that my Self is bigger
than this woman I am, in this body as it is,
with this mind, with this identify.
Self-awareness taught me that I am this world,
I am you, I am this universe.
Only gratitude now, as the self within me
reminds me that nothing more needs to be said.

Gratitude: Day 22 of 48

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I’m a writer, have been since elementary school.
I’m grateful I can wield my pen and my words and my voice
intentionally,
and share what’s going on with me
in a way that engages others to share their stories with me.
I’m grateful I was taught to read and write.
I’m grateful I can create worlds in my mind
and assign words to the worlds
in a way that will paint vivid pictures in your mind.
Words are power,
like wind is power,
and fire is power,
and water is power,
and love is power.
May the fact of my sharing
help one person know that they aren’t alone.
May these words written from my heart
reach out into the world
and make it a more loving place!

Gratitude: Day 21 of 48

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She has been there, and she has gotten through it.
She has felt deep pain, and she transcended it.
It’s amazing to feel love for someone I don’t know,
and who may never know I exist,
but I love this woman, Iyanla Vanzant.
She took her experiences
and turned them into teaching opportunities,
sharing what she has learned with the world
who yearns for authentic teachers.
That’s true love and true generosity,
and I am truly grateful.
Thank you Iyanla!

Gratitude: Day 20 of 48

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It works if you work it.

I ended up in a twelve step meeting
a couple of months after my husband decided
he no longer wanted to be married anymore.
I was devastated; having trouble eating and sleeping,
feeling isolated because I had lost a lot of friends
in the separation.
The coach I was working with suggested a meeting,
and found one for me in town.
The first meeting I inwardly criticized the room,
thought it needed to be redecorated.
The second meeting I realized everyone in my life
is codependent.
The third meeting I started to believe that the program
might help me if I worked it.
Two and a half years later,
I know my program has saved my life.
I have found a sponsor and am working the steps
slowly but surely…
getting ready to do a fourth step soon.
When I was ready to give up on life,
this program showed up to demonstrate
that grace is active in my life,
and I am truly grateful.

Gratitude: Day 18 of 48

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And doggone it…people like me!

After years of being told I wasn’t good enough

My dietary choices were offensive,

It wasn’t ok to sit and knit when visiting the in-laws,

I didn’t keep the house clean enough,

My meditation practice was selfish—

The old programming has been hard to uproot.

But I am fortunate, because I have been given

Tools and resources to recover.

One of them is positive self-talk.

My current favorite mantra is

I love you and I’m proud of you.

It works wonders. I feel more confident and relaxed,

It no longer feels like a catastrophe when my house isn’t perfectly clean and organized,

And I like myself. I like being me.

I’m ok with being alone.

Try it out. See how it feels.

If it feels fake and forced,

Keep trying. You might discover

That you actually do love yourself.