Category Archives: gratitude

Gratitude, Day 33 of 48: Freedom

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I have this power to choose
and I choose freedom.
I choose to see how inextricably connected
I am with All That Is
and to communicate deeply with consciousness
as it presents itself in the present moment.
I choose to surrender into being
to dissolve the illusion of confinement within me
so that I can truly experience the ultimate freedom.
I let go of my definition of this moment.
What arrives is truth, reality, the freedom to be
exactly who I am, accepting my humanity,
in love with life the way it is…

Gratitude, Day 32 of 48: Choice

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Every day we are presented myriad choices,
from the first moment of the day until the last.
Awareness of our choices empowers us.
Deeply attuned to our core values
we make choices that align us with our vision.
The past brought me here,
but where I go depends entirely
on who I choose to be.
I chose to make this short and sweet.
I’m tired because I chose to work this weekend.
I choose to work hard
because I’m happy to provide
a good life for myself and my kids.
I choose to breathe now, and practice gratitude
for what I’ve been given,
and for making the choice to receive it.

Gratitude, Day 31 of 48: Discipline

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Spirit: Time to get up and meditate.
Mind: Nope. I wanna sleep in.
Spirit: Time to get up and meditate.
Mind (whining): But I wanna just be comfyyyyyyy.
Spirit: Get up and meditate. Now.
Body (silently) gets up, gets dressed, goes downstairs
and meditates.
Takeaway: Spirit always wins, thanks to discipline.

Gratitude, Day 30 of 48: Perspective

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You’ve come a long way baby!
You were scared to live without him
and then he left.
You thought you were going to die,
but you didn’t.
You were terrified you wouldn’t find a new home,
and then you did.
You weren’t sure you could make ends meet,
but you have, month after month after month.
Just look at you go, sweetheart!
See how it all works out?
From my perspective, you’re a superhero.
And…I LOVE YOU.

Gratitude, Day 29 of 48: Self-forgiveness

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When he left I tried to forgive him.
I wanted to forgive him and I wanted to forgive the other woman.
But as much as I tried, it wasn’t working.
I was still angry, lonely, grieving.
I was still terrified, feeling betrayed, victimized.
Then I realized I didn’t need to work on forgiving them,
I needed to work on forgiving myself.
I am training myself to understand
that I’m worthy of love even if I’m not perfect.
I’m working on forgiving myself
for tolerating the way I was treated in my marriage.
I’m working on forgiving myself for being human.
With the focus back on me I can actually feel
my body/spirit/mind/heart/self as it heals.
I’m finally getting to know the woman I am,
and I’m discovering that I love her.

Gratitude, Day 28 of 48: Pause

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We might feel haunted but what needs to get done.
We might feel driven to achieve success,
and we might believe that we’ll be happy
once we do.
I am one of those people.
I am also fortunate to have teachers, mentors,
guides and wise ones show me a different way.
When I feel haunted by the to do list,
I can pause.
When I think I need to be more successful,
I can pause.
The household chores don’t all have to get done at once.
I don’t need to achieve overnight success.
I don’t have to prove myself to the world.
I can pause to enjoy where I am and who I am right now.
What a relief!

Gratitude, Day 27 of 48: Surrender

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Let go or be dragged…

When he decided our marriage was over,
I didn’t know how to let go.
When he collected his family, colleagues, clients and friends
and drew a line in the sand,
I didn’t know how to let go.
When he began seeing another woman and spending nights out,
I didn’t know how to let go.
When he introduced our children to the other woman,
I didn’t know how to let go.
When our house went into foreclosure,
I didn’t know how to let go.
And I was dragged. I was dragged. I was dragged.
And it hurt, how it hurt, how it hurt.
But I survived. I began to pray to God
Show me how to let go.
Show me how to surrender gracefully.

Slowly but surely,
Life revealed to me what remained
when what was no longer serving me was dragged away.
I’m finding more stable ground,
and learning how to love what is here, now.
I’m discovering that I’m happier by myself,
healthier living in alignment with my deeper self,
more confident speaking with my true voice,
grateful for the simple things, the simple grace of being.
I am grateful for this sweet surrender to life.

Gratitude, Day 26 of 48: Simplicity

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I’m learning how to simplify…
I can’t anticipate what’s next,
but I can be here now.
I can’t know what will happen
tomorrow,
but I can attend to what needs to be done today.
I can’t know if my friends
will be in my life forever,
but I can love who they are right now.
I can practice this willingness
to stay in the simple present moment
so that when the time comes,
I can simply let go,
simply let go.

Gratitude, Day 25 of 48: Trust

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Trust…this ability to have no idea what’s happening next
but going ahead and trying anway.
Today I had a chance to practice trust as I created a painting.
Two years ago I had a chance to practice trust
as my marriage fell apart.
Every day I have the opportunity to trust the process of life.
I give thanks to the teachers, mentors and guides
who have shown me that it’s safe to let go and trust.
May you trust the inherent wholeness of your life!

Gratitude, Day 24 of 48: Gratitude

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Yep, I’m grateful for gratitude.

Halfway through this challenge,
and I have to pause to be grateful
for gratitude itself.
I began a gratitude journaling practice
years before my marriage ended,
and had made it a habit
to focus on what was going well
in my marriage,
so I was shocked when
my husband announced it was over.
Turns out he had been doing the opposite,
focusing on what I did that annoyed him.
Although I pleaded with him to step back
and look at the good in our lives,
he had made up his mind
that I was the worst wife ever
and there was nothing I could do about that.
I continued to write in my gratitude journal
as my life fell apart at the seams.
I continued writing in my journal
even as the voices in my head told me
I’d be better off dead.
I continued writing in my journal
as I weathered storm after storm after storm.
I have learned perseverance, strength,
discipline, will, resilience.
I have learned how to put things
into perspective.
I have learned that I don’t need a man
to feel worthy—
I am worthy because I exist.
I survived.
And I attribute a large part of my success
to the mindset I developed
while practicing gratitude.
Thank you gratitude!