As I attempt to embrace new ways of thinking, being, doing and expressing, My old self-tries to seduce me back to what is familiar. My future self is waving wildly, calling me forward. My current self is just exhausted from life in 3D reality. God, grant me patience with myself as I vacillate between what was and what can be. Let me feel loved, safe, seen and heard. In the end, this is all a dream. I really shouldn’t take it so seriously.
I love you, forever and always. I promise to take care of you and never, ever leave you. I promise to support you any way I can. I promise to celebrate you and all your successes. I am so proud of who you’ve become! I love spending time with you! You are such an amazing person; I’m so inspired by you, your openness, vulnerability, willingness to dig deep and allow your authentic self to speak. Let me know how I can love you better. I am here totally and completely for you.
Don’t wait until the end of the day to say the good things in your heart. By the end of the day your tired body and mind will speak louder, and what comes out then will not be nearly as helpful as the sweet nectar flowing from your gloriously loving heart.
A fellow meditator and blogger, upon reading of my financial situation, planted a seed of kindness (right into my PayPal account) and renewed my faith in humanity. A recovery friend, upon hearing that my AC had gone up, called upon another friend who planted a seed of kindness (checking my breaker box, checking my AC unit, attempted to diagnose the issue) and further renewed my faith in humanity. A girlfriend, upon hearing of the trauma uncovered in therapy since the winter, planted a seed of kindness, (threw her arms around me, held me for a moment) and renewed my faith in humanity further still. My aunt sent me a package in the mail— a mother’s day card (with a little cash!) a recipe, and a bible… It seems she wants to renew my faith in humanity too. Did I need to create this terrifying experience of losing my marriage and now losing my home because I had lost my faith? Are all of these situations simply a chance to renew my faith in humanity? All I know is breathing and being is what I want. With my faith renwed, I see it’s possible to relax into this moment and open to the love that’s already there.