And when you can finally
relax into the truth
of who you really are
you will find
the most gentle sweetness
waiting for you everywhere—
Life, loving you as you really are.
I asked Spirit for guidance
regarding the way
I want to experience
Breathe and smile real big, darling,
breathe and smile real big.
It was there,
and just as quickly,
it was gone.
Such a tease,
I thought I knew.
Here is how we move
until we awaken to our true nature:
aimless, blind, lost
wondering in an infinitely vast desert,
no clue where home is.
Here is how we move
when we have awakened to our true nature:
light, spacious, connected
dancing in an infintely vast home,
contained and opened simultaneously
by the source of Love itself.
I breathed in your fragrance and I didn’t stop breathing.
Now I am in a different dimension, constantly coupled with you.
I care nothing of the world I left behind.
This new world with you is all I’ve ever wanted.
As I let go of the woman
I thought you needed me to be,
I become the woman
I always was.
And I realize,
I love her fiercely.
I’ve been searching for something out there,
sometimes catching a whiff of its fragrance
in the wind.
It would render me melancholy
to sense it but experience it
so far away,
when my heart longed for this thing
I could not know.
Sometimes it was a rush of cold air
into my nostrils
as I stepped from my grandmother’s house
into the winter night
and I’d search for the star
in the dark blue sky
that told me the light
was returning soon.
For the longest time
I feared the magic and suppressed it
much to my heart’s dismay.
The whole world seemed cold and dark
and I was trapped in a prison
of my own making.
Spirit came to rattle me out of my cage
and throw me into the light of day.
Such a fool I was,
resisting a project of God’s hand.
How can I stop the ocean from surging?
How can I move the sun in the sky?
How can I make the moon glow brightly?
How can I give the gift of new life?
I only experience these things
because consciousness pours through me.
Who made this consciousness,
the perceiver and the perceived?
My body speaks clearly.
Its language is believed.
I trust the longing in me now.
The magic in me swells alive within.
I open the door to the cold and dark everywhere
and catch its beloved fragrance on the wind.