Today so much thought
was given to the near miss
I recently experienced,
in which I was preparing myself
to invest $2000 in an online program
that was marketed brilliantly
by site designers, videographers,
and “entrepreneurs” who appeared
in beautiful video interviews
in which they offered the most glowing reviews
of the program
with perfect lighting, hair, and makeup.
All interviews were filmed in beautiful homes
in classy places like:
Playa del Carmen, Mexico
a gorgeous old city in Slovenia
and some beautiful beach in California…
those entrepreneurs are clearly
living the dream life.
I consider myself to be a smart gal,
but boy was I hooked!
To wake up each day SO EXCITED
because I have tapped into my power,
learned how to market myself
and put myself in the position to deliver
my precious gifts
to my target audience and
impact their lives in a deeply positive way…
to believe in my gifts and talents,
and to derive a sense of purpose from sharing them…
to be supported
in letting go of self-limiting beliefs
by a glowingly successful community,
to be given an individualized action plan
for bringing my lucrative business into being,
to be coached through the process,
this is purportedly what the program would do
for anyone who “put in the work.”
A road map for success.
I was lit up,
I was going to do this.
In February I was going to join
a group of brilliant individuals
living on the cutting edge of innovation
and finally live my dream.
And then it happened.
I shared my excitement with my husband,
whose face fell,
and whose mouth was mostly silent,
until he dredged up some GOMI* threads
and revealing reviews from the other side,
rare reviews that managed to get published
and remain in the public domain…
rare because they spoke another story.
A story of disappointment
about an expensive product
that doesn’t really deliver much
A curriculum that hasn’t been updated in years
a MLM platform hidden in the language
of “finding yourself”
Affiliates with a frighteningly broad reach
offering endorsements of the program’s creator
on TV shows…
I kept digging…
and as my plan
to pay someone
to help me awaken
to my full potential
began to fade from my consciousness,
something else emerged.
This was the voice that said,
You have all you need within you,
now, in this moment, to be happy.
You don’t need to change a thing.
Isn’t it such a relief to come back home?
*Get Off My Internets…an actual website