I want to stop trying so hard to be good.
I want to just touch on
my own inherent goodness
and allow it to be enough
for this moment.
I can see our innocence.
I can see how much we try.
I can see that he is doing his best
and so am I.
Could I forgive him
for having this affair?
Could I forgive his mistress
for sleeping with a married man
who has two children and a wife
that he left to be with her?
Could I see her innocence too?
If I can allow others to be who they are
and do what they do
and love them anyway,
there is hope I can afford myself
the same kindness.
There comes a moment
in forgiveness work
when we realize that
there’s nothing left to do
We can try to control the process.
We can try to dig up our own stories
and cleanse our own wounds.
We can see healers,
we can ask for a healing balm,
we can apply it…
but then it’s time to trust
in the healing process.
For just one moment
step away from the story
that you shouldn’t be hurting.
Look at what your pain
has taught you.
Open up to your heart of awareness
and be grateful for what has led you here.
All is as it should be.
Now allow the healing to come.
I awaken with new hope.
I feel grateful for simple things:
the sunlight spilling into my room,
the fact that I can eat, drink and be warm
in this home.
I realize that things are never as bad
as my mind would have me believe.
Oh my mind,
could you relax?
Could you just be for one moment?
I can accept you too, my mind,
in all of your neurotic obsessions,
I can still love you.
Maybe this is why
I awaken with new hope.
I realize that everything I am
is welcome, is free, is loved.
And now I can see the world
with these eyes of hope
and this life that is very, very good.
There is a rhythm to life,
to the rising and setting of the sun
and the cresting and the crashing of the wave,
there is a rhythm.
Could I let go inside the pulse of the Universe?
Could I trust this cosmic rhythm
of coming and going,
of wholeness and disintegration?
How might I show up inside this moment
as I embrace the fullness and the emptiness,
as I let go in order to receive?
The only thing I could ever lose
is the ego that only knows to resist what is.
As I turn to face reality
and I allow the resistance to melt,
the whole world opens up before me.
I think I’ll choose
the path of least resistance.
My mind asks
When will this be over?
I am filled with anxiety
and there is no apparent end
Then Spirit gently reminds me
This isn’t being done to you
this is being done for you
Grief, then joy.
Exhaustion, then motivation.
Emptiness, then fulfillment.
For so long I thought the goal
was never-ending bliss.
Then I grew up (a little).
Now I see that to be fully human
means to experience
the full range of human emotions.
Each one has a story to tell,
a lesson to impart.
And we are meant to learn
our whole lives.
We will never be done.
When you are stuck
in doubt and fear
don’t stay there!
Take a deep breath
and reach out to your teachers.
You have them,
Reach out to the ones
who remind you who you really are,
the ones who hold you in the space
of lovingkindness, acceptance, compassion.
If you can’t think of anyone
who can do that for you right now,
then it’s time to do it for yourself.
Reach in to the teacher inside,
the one who remembers
that you have a purpose to live out
in this world of changing weather.
Reach in to the one
who knows how to breathe deeply,
to the one who gives you permission
to be exactly who you are right now,
and who knows how worthy you are
of loving and being loved.
Whether we reach out or we reach in
we will find rest and peace
in the space
of silent, clear awareness.