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Always at Choice

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After being blessed in my heart
with the miracle of forgiveness
and seeing with new eyes
for a few glorious, light-filled days,
the weight of real life
came crashing down upon me
and with it the story I had told so well.
It was the story of being wronged,
the story of betrayal, victimization
and loss.
I have rehearsed it frontwards,
backwards
up
and
down.
I know it word by word
and line by line;
hell, I could give a doctoral dissertation on it,
defend it before a group of intellectuals,
and I’m sure they’d award me with a degree in it—
Lorien Nemec, Ph.D.—
yes, I’m THAT good at my story.
As the familiar feelings of depression,
heaviness, sadness and powerlessness returned
I wondered why I couldn’t sustain
the good feelings for longer.
And then it occurred to me
(again, because I knew this already)
I’m always at choice.
If I want to change
I need to keep making the new choice
until it becomes a habit…
Otherwise the old choices
will always take over.
It’s time to wield this power of choice
and keep telling the new story
until I’m as good at telling it
and living it
as I’ve been with telling
and living the old.

Free and Light and Clear

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I was ready for it
and so it came…
forgiveness.
I realized
I didn’t want to suffer any longer.
I wanted him to be happy.
I wanted to heal.
I wanted my children to feel safe
with both of us.
I wanted to release my anger.
I wanted to embrace trust,
to trust in love,
to love what is.
Once the decision was made,
there was no turning back.
Grace swept over me
and through me,
above and below me,
all around me,
in front of me,
behind me,
inside,
outside,
past and future,
and I found myself
here in this moment
free and light and clear.

For All That Is

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I’m ready for a new paradigm,
one in which I am empowered
to stand on my own two feet
and know my place in this world.
I’m ready for quantum leaps
in awareness, flowing toward
the inevitability of my destiny.
I’m ready to trust,
to look with open eyes,
to hear with open ears,
to love with an open heart,
to BE with an open mind.
Great Spirit, thank you.
Thank you for guiding me on this journey.
May I awaken for the benefit of all beings.
May my life bring benefit to this planet.
My I know who I really am
and show up in the world
full of love and gratitude
for all that is.

Ready For Something New?

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Ok, so I get it.
Life isn’t simple or easy.
It’s a struggle, right?
It’s normal to feel down, right?
It’s normal to feel angry,
sad, uptight, out of sorts.
Don’t complain.
Do your duty.
But wait.
What if it weren’t
necessarily this way?
Stop.
Get still.
Close your eyes.
Breathe OUT fully.
Then breathe in.
Breathe in more.
Hold this breath in.
Wait
Wait
Wait
Wait
Wait
Wait more.
Then exhale slowly.
Exhale all the way.
Exhale more.
Get really empty.
How do you feel now?
Are you ready now?
Ready for something new?

Mindset Training

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Mindset training…
That’s all this really is.
Because our realities
are formed by our thoughts,
if we don’t like what we see
we need to rearrange how we think.
I’m not saying that we tolerate
the intolerable, oh no.
We aren’t being apathetic
to injustice or tyranny, nope.
A proper mindset
keeps us aware
of our power
and shows us how to wield it
in the wisest of ways.
I choose now
to be a stand for what is good
in the universe.
I see that good.
And I do everything in my power
to help others to see it
and express it
for the benefit of all beings.