I don’t need to fix anything, change anything, or figure anything out. Wait a minute. Did I just say that? Yes! Yes I did! I don’t need to fix anything, change anything, or figure anything out. I DON’T NEED TO FIX ANYTHING, CHANGE ANYTHING, OR FIGURE ANYTHING OUT! It’s a miracle!
Ok, so where to begin? I recently dodged two bullets and celebrated my close calls, having lived through three years of celibacy and discovering that I’d rather be alone than share my time with a man who cannot slow down, breathe, rest, and truly see me.
I took a supplement that made me sick, REALLY sick for eight hours. And this is why I’m writing this poem from my bed, Hoping, praying, I’ll get some rest tonight. I remembered deep in my suffering how I am not alone in this; Many beings suffer as I do, in this very moment. May all beings everywhere find relief from illness and suffering. May all beings experience their heart’s true joy. May all beings awaken endless compassion. May we all lift one another up during this time.
Don’t worry about getting it right because you can’t get it wrong… Just make it through this. You don’t have to try to be good, because you can’t be bad, you are a human being… Just make it through this. Throw out all goals except this one: To breathe slowly and deeply as many times as I can remember, through all the days of my life. The outcome is assured. Relax. Breathe. You’ll make it through this.
Just breathe. Just relax. Look around you. This moment. Don’t try to figure it all out. The moment is always changing, and the understanding you have now is different from the one you will have tomorrow. It is enough to just be who you are. It is enough to just breathe. This moment. Look around you. Just relax. Just breathe.