I have this power to choose and I choose freedom. I choose to see how inextricably connected I am with All That Is and to communicate deeply with consciousness as it presents itself in the present moment. I choose to surrender into being to dissolve the illusion of confinement within me so that I can truly experience the ultimate freedom. I let go of my definition of this moment. What arrives is truth, reality, the freedom to be exactly who I am, accepting my humanity, in love with life the way it is…
I’ve always been a sensitive person, wanting to understand myself, my world, who I am, why I’m here. I’m glad I found my way to my journals; I didn’t always have someone readily available to hold space as I explored the contents of my mind. This ability to tune into my thoughts and feelings and put them to words enabled me to also articulate them clearly to another. When I can share who I know myself to be with you, and you can share who you know yourself to be with me, then we create a space for authentic relationship, whether we are friends, family, colleagues or intimate partners. These days I am only interested in authentic connection, with you, with me, with this world. Self-awareness made this connection possible. I am grateful to my teachers who led me to this space of self-exploration through meditation, therapy, contemplation, writing, being. I am grateful to know that my Self is bigger than this woman I am, in this body as it is, with this mind, with this identify. Self-awareness taught me that I am this world, I am you, I am this universe. Only gratitude now, as the self within me reminds me that nothing more needs to be said.
Let’s imagine that everything you’ve lived until now was a dream, and suddenly, you’ve awoken, and realized you were sleeping. You finally can see that everything you’ve ever lived is your own dream creation, and as the Creator of this dream existence you’ve also constructed the ideas of “right” and “wrong.” Let’s further imagine that upon recognizing that you’ve awoken, you find it quite funny how you believed that “right” and “wrong” actually existed. Now that you know there is no such thing, suddenly, you take a deep breath and relax, realizing that peace, too, is your creation.
I surrender what is, into the loving fire of transformation, the light of which illuminates the present and manifests the future, in the highest creative expression of unconditional love.
—Alana Fairchild, from the Sacred Rebels oracle deck guidebook, pp 98-99
They say there is a jewel in the lotus, and if it can root down in the mud and grow up toward the light eventually it will break through the surface of the water and blossom open. They say the light pouring forth from the jewel in the center of the lotus is brighter than the brightest sun and all who behold this radiance are blessed. May we awaken to our present conditions that the flower of our awakening may blossom open in radiance and may the jewel at the center of our consciousness shine brightly for all beings to behold.
Don’t panic. Panic won’t help. Just breathe. Breathing will most definitely help. Trust. Trusting will help. But don’t tense up. Tensing up won’t help. Just feel your body softening, opening and relaxing. Softening, opening and relaxing will most definitely help.
Who waits patiently for you to finally wake up and realize that you were the one you were searching for all along? Who reminds you to breathe, when, in the midst of daily effort you realize you’ve taken on some old struggle that isn’t yours to endure? Who waits for you through all the years of your life and at the end of it all stands with open arms to welcome you back home? Your Self, Your True Self, The only reality, The consciousness that pervades all…