Jaded, yet plugging along at this thing called daily life. I want so much to be understood by someone who doesn’t charge me an hourly rate. I’m tired of being tired, tired of being grumpy, tired of being overextended. Every day I write what I’m grateful for, I remember how blessed I am, I give thanks. And, I’m waiting for more. I’m waiting for ease, for connection, for direction. Maybe I shouldn’t wait, but who has the energy to leap up, go out, and manifest a whole new life? I’ll just breathe and see if I can reclaim my sanity.
Don’t panic. Panic won’t help. Just breathe. Breathing will most definitely help. Trust. Trusting will help. But don’t tense up. Tensing up won’t help. Just feel your body softening, opening and relaxing. Softening, opening and relaxing will most definitely help.
Perhaps if I slow down and breathe a little deeper Maybe I’ll find the peace I’m yearning for and Somehow I’ll relax and enjoy this moment. Pointless as it is to struggle against reality I find Myself resisting what is and isolating myself in my pain, starkly contrasting with the sunshiny exterior my students see. Possibly I can hang in there and keep breathing until Magically my mood shifts into a brighter place. Someday I’ll feel like myself again.
Little by little a little becomes a lot. Day by day, step by step, breath by breath, eventually the pieces of the puzzle come together to reveal the coherent whole. Life is a mystery; we can only truly understand it looking backwards. Our faith, our belief in the unseen realm, will guide us through the challenges and the changes in fortune that mark a human life. If we are willing to stay the course, breathe, and believe, one day what we’re currently going through will make sense. So friend, will you breathe with me? Will you breathe and believe?