Tag Archives: communion

What I Yearn For

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I’m discovering that I need people to be happy.
I’m noticing that when I’m around people
I feel good.
I eat.
I laugh.
I feel happy.
But when I’m by myself,
I become depressed.
I don’t eat.
I feel worthless.
I’m trying to bring more
meaningful connection
into my life,
but connection takes time and energy.
And motivation.
How do I find the energy and motivation
to connect
when I’ve been alone for so long
that I’m feeling heavy and depressed?
What came first…the loneliness or the depression?
I sense that I’ve had this feeling for a long, long time.
Even as a child some part of me knew
I needed deep, meaningful connection,
and when I was made to be in groups
where only superficial connection was taking place,
I felt drained, listless.
I decided that I was better off by myself.
I labeled myself as an introvert,
and I’ve spent a lot of my life just wanting to be away from people.
But now I see a distinction to be made.
Connection is so much more
than being with someone for the sake of not being alone…
It’s being together with a sense of purpose,
engaging in co-evolution, exploration, sharing, growth.
Relating heart to heart, mind to mind, soul to soul—
this is what I yearn for.

You Are Not Alone

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It’s easy to believe you are alone
in moments of anger,
impatience,
frustration,
depression.
The energy of these heavy emotions
draws us into our own swirls and spirals
of that in us which is unresolved,
unexamined,
forgotten,
repressed,
ignored.
But there is a way to escape
the self-absorption
that entraps us in our own darkness.
Be curious.
Look around you.
See the other beings with whom you share this space,
this same feeling,
this same wanting,
needing,
longing.
When you see that you are truly  not alone,
then you can find relief–
a communion of similar souls
walking this path
also trying to awaken,
to be happy,
to be healthy,
to be peaceful and at ease.
Be curious.
Look around you.
Whatever it is that you are feeling,
you are not alone.

Let’s Do Our Job

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It occurred to me tonight
as I invoked the muses before writing,
that yes,
it is nice to have divine inspiration,
but it can’t do much if we don’t receive
what it is we are asking for.

Let’s get clear on what we want:

beauty
peace
joy
love
harmony
abundance
health
synchronicity
creativity
clarity
communion
contentment–

and then let us receive these things we ask for,
by breathing in deeply.

Then feeling the existence of these wondrous qualities within us,
let us share them with all beings
by giving of ourselves,
breathing out completely.

Yes, invoke divine beings–
angels, teachers, guides,
but then let’s do our job too.

Let’s Breathe.