A gathering of beautiful friends brings me back to a natural rhythm, closer to my true nature, more authentic. Food prepared consciously nourishes our bodies and souls. Sitting with beloveds and sharing a meal attunes us collectively to our shared visions. Moving into a mode of celebration opens our eyes to the abundance that is here now, opens our hearts to the recognition that it is a gift to be alive. I choose to move towards those who are willing to recognize the good in their lives. Those who give thanks are way more fun to be around than those who can’t see any reason to be grateful! I’m glad to be one of the happy ones who chooses to see the good in life. I am blessed to openly celebrate how wonderful it is to be alive.
Well, I did it again! Returning home this afternoon after teaching two yoga classes; my music director neighbor was outside and mentioned a choral concert he was conducting at a church downtown, one hour after my evening workshop was finished. I think I can make it, I told him. But I may be kind of blahhhhh; I’ve had a busy weekend. Well, he said, We’ll see ya when we see ya! I taught my workshop, and my impulse was to go straight home and once again feel lonely and sorry for myself. Don’t go to the city the anxious one in me said, You’ll have to worry about parking and you’re a women by herself at night. I made myself go. I forced myself. I found parking not far from the church, arrived early, found a seat in the front row. The music was so beautiful I cried. Afterwards I gave my neighnor a hug, thanked him for the invitation. Home now, freshly showered, safe and warm, I’m so grateful I didn’t listen to the anxious voice telling me not to go. I think I’m on a roll!
It’s amazing what can happen when you get over yourself and try something new. I made myself get out tonight, even though a part of me just wanted to stay home and feel lonely and depressed. I made myself get out tonight to attend the yoga studio holiday party. I took the staff yoga class, and ate some yummy vegan food; I even won a gift card in a raffle! I sat and ate, and multiple people actually sat down next to me and talked to me! It felt good to connect. It felt good to be out, to be in the presence of kind souls making merry. Yes, it’s amazing what can happen when you get over yourself and try something new.
This evening at dusk I hiked down to the reservoir, admired the beauty of the water, the sky, the play of light on everything, the way the breeze was ruffling my hair… I put in my ear buds, played a medicine song* on my phone and sang along. I stepped barefoot onto some rock slabs that sloped into the water, stretched my arms to the sky. Then I began to dance. I felt so wonderful and free. Then I noticed across the way, on the other side of the water, maybe fifty yards away someone was sitting there on an outcropping of rock with a dog, watching me. A young man, he was too far away for me to tell how old…maybe a teenager? And guess what? I KEPT DANCING. I thought to myself, Well, he gets to be entertained, then. And I kept dancing, and doing yoga, because it felt good. I just kept singing and dancing, and he just kept watching me from across the water, with his dog. I danced unselfconsciously. I danced for the wind and the water and for my heart that was yearning open in the setting sun. I danced for the woman who grieved for two years the loss of her husband’s love and who is now free to love herself better than any man ever has. Then the breeze picked up as twilight descended. I collected my things, slipped my shoes back on, ready to hike back up to my car. I turned around to see the young man across the water beginning his climb up the rocks with his dog. I put my hands together at my heart and bowed to him. I silently wished that he would find his heart’s true joy. I’ll never know who my audience of one was… I’m just glad that I kept dancing. ✨ ✨ ✨ *I listened to “Healing Angels,” “Amataye,” and “Ayahuasca Takimuki” from the Sacred Valley Tribe collection of medicine songs.
As it is, this moment is complete. There are no missing pieces. Are you are, you are complete, There are no missing pieces. As it is, the universe is complete. There are no missing pieces. As we are, our connection is complete. There are no missing pieces.