Today I turn 43;
This body has made
43 trips around the sun,
and it seems significant
that I find myself alone
to send up rockets of appreciation
from my square foot of earth
to celebrate the occasion of my birth.
I like myself.
I like the company I keep
in the quiet moments
when there is no one else
to break the silence,
when I have the space to listen to
the deep music of what continues
without human effort,
when we finally slow down
and accept that
enough is enough.
C’mon, admit it to me—
You weren’t in love with the routine anyway!
You ritualistically grumbled
At the dawn of each new day
And resented the tasks asked of you.
C’mon, be honest, admit it—
You didn’t have much to lose!
Only your attachment to control,
Your belief in an uncaring universe,
Your inability to recognize how blessed you were.
Let’s be frank with one another.
This whole global pandemic is a gift!
It’s an opportunity to slow down and see
The lies you were telling to you
The lies I was telling to me.
Listen closely to me.
THIS IS AN OPPORTUNITY.
An opportunity to be free.
To slow down and see what really matters to you.
What really matters to me.
Slow down, beloved. Breathe.
It’s all good, you see?
Being ok with change takes practice,
so don’t be hard on yourself
for not taking this well.
We are hardwired to gravitate
it’s how we all survived this long,
so in a deep, instinctive way,
we all yearn to get back to “normal.”
we were made for these times.
This is what we have been preparing for.
So, beloveds, take a deep breath,
be extra kind, gentle and loving with yourself,
hold all your hurting parts with tenderness.
Change is hard and
sometimes life sucks,
but you aren’t alone.
We will get through this together.
Little, simple things,
such a precious gift:
the routine, the calm,
the boring, the repetitive,
how we long for this now
as it all disappears, temporarily.
I’m hoping we all seize this opportunity
to slow down and go within
and remember what’s important to us,
what we neglect in our habit of unconsciousness.
Let this be an acknowledgement
of what is always waiting
for this moment when we pause
Worrying doesn’t help,
so don’t do it.
A break from the routine is a chance
to appreciate the minute daily occurrences
that we take for granted.
That which appeared insignificant
in an unconscious repetition
suddenly becomes profoundly meaningful.
The mundane becomes sacred
in the light of such deep appreciation.
We find we yearn for what we had,
so many little acts of connection
and familiar places we can no longer access
because of unforeseen changes
and uncertain futures.
When we aren’t involved in an
the space of uncertainty lets loose a discomfort
for the one who needs the calm familiar,
the safe, the known.
My friends, be not afraid.
This is an awakening.
How you experience this is entirely up to you.
Take a deep breath with me, now,
and breathe again.
Now is the time to cultivate appreciation.
The molecules of gratitude for
everything you love
coursing through your being
bring tidings of light and health
to every cell of your body.
Drink in what you love, now
through smiling deep breaths
of YES YES YES to life, YES!
Do not let fear pickle your cells
in darkness and despair.
Let me feel your shining smile
through the ethers our friendship now inhabits.
Stand in your one little spot of earth
and declare that you are an anchor
for peace, for gratitude,
My friends, be not afraid.
This is a sacred time.
Let the visions that were trampled
under the daily stampede of traffic
now float up in a whisper an inch
behind your eyelids.
Listen to this whisper.
It promises the joy you have yearned for
in the deepest center of your soul.
Now is the time to create, to express;
in the space of the unknown
you have so much room to choose
how this goes.
Celebrate! Love! Sing! Dance!
Enjoy the beloveds you
have the privilege to share space with!
Show us your art!
Sing us your songs!
Let us hear your laugh!
Let us see your funny faces!
Share with us a video
of something beautifully boring!
Let us send little resonances
along the web that connects us
to tickle and delight and uplift
what the outer world cannot touch.
To sum up:
Take a break
to keep calm,
I was sitting in my kitchen window seat
soaking in the warm sun,
looking up at the blue sky,
smiling, feeling peaceful.
And then it struck me
that my life is unique,
and it is all mine,
and I wouldn’t trade
my humble, simple life
for anyone else’s life,
no matter how fancy or exciting.
That was a satisfying moment.
I fell out of the loop for a moment,
caught in a swirl of perfectionism.
Suddenly I remembered that
it’s not about being perfect,
it’s about showing up authentically
in the perfection of this moment…
and so I came back.