that I can let Life surprise me.
When I realize I’m the Fool,
my mind is open to new learning.
When my heart is broken
I have a chance to see the light
shining from the million tiny pieces,
more beautiful than all the stars
in the darkest night sky.
Sometimes the deepest pain
holds an even deeper treasure.
May I trust
and keep digging.
The Universe is a jokester,
its arms lightly crisscrossing
doubled over in laughter
pointing at me…
bellowing bawdy guffaws
Slapping its thigh,
so satisfied with itself.
Every time I think I get it,
I learned the lesson,
I figured it out,
something else happens,
and a big neon sign flashes
right in front of my eyes,
And I’m standing there,
mouth hanging open,
Looking so foolish.
And that’s how I figured
no one escapes from the game.
I could play smart
or I could play dumb
but I don’t get to sit out.
And the universe always
why dost thou elude me?
Why, when I need you the most,
do you seem to be in such short supply?
that’s how it is.
While learning how to be patient with life,
you need to be patient with yourself.
Patience with Self
is a sure sign that you’re ready
to be patient with others.
I never thought it would be like this.
That’s because life doesn’t stop
to check in with my little ideas
about how things should be.
It just goes on being what it is,
regardless of my thoughts.
If I want to be happy,
I need to be aware of my thinking,
and ask some questions
when my thoughts create shadows
in place of the light.
May I have the strength to see the truth
when my thoughts have blinded me.
May I have the patience to endure
the challenges life has in store for me,
and may these challenges
make me stronger.
I was feeling disappointed
for not handling a difficult situation
with more grace and skill…
Then a friend reminded me
This is a tough situation,
you’re not supposed to be graceful.
It’s messy…And that’s okay!
thankful for friends who remind me
that it’s okay to be human.
It’s okay to show up as myself.
It’s okay to make mistakes,
and even better to learn from them.
I breathe again,
renewing my commitment to relax
into this process
of just being me.
Going to bed early tonight…
hoping for a sound sleep.
Exhaustion has crept up on me
and my patience has flown away.
Sometimes I wish life came
with an instruction manual,
but I guess in the end,
there is no right way or wrong way,
it’s just the way I’m taking right now,
and I can learn with every step.
It’s a process of refinement,
of discernment, attunement,
discovering ever subtler
levels of consciousness,
finding the currents of connection,
the threads that run through all of us,
tapping in to what is meaningful,
lasting, helpful, loving, and kind.
and I’m still not done.
and, I’ll never be done.
My work will never be good enough
to stop working.
I’ll never have learned enough
to stop learning.
I won’t ever have loved enough
to stop loving,
and I won’t have awakened enough
to stop awakening.
Yes. I’ll never be done.