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Drift Into Dreamland

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He must’ve been tired,
because my eight year old said
Can we go to bed?
Can you tuck us in?

And I thought
Yes please go to bed.
Who’ll tuck me in?

And then I got up from where
we were snuggled in reading.
I shivered into my robe,
then tucked my daughter in
after brushing her hair
and scratching her back
and answering some questions.
I tucked my son in,
raining kisses on his forehead,
his cheeks;
he got annoyed.
I remembered that nothing lasts forever,
not even mother’s kisses
that give us angels’ wings
right before we drift into dreamland.

Such A Beautiful Place

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If I can drop a little deeper
below the surface of the mind
that is always problem-solving
and strategizing,
I arrive at a place where all is well.
Don’t get me wrong,
the world is still the world,
and there is still a Pandemic happening,
there are still bills to be paid
and an ex-husband to negotiate with
and a house to clean
and meals to prepare
and laundry to be done.
There is still a heart that yearns open
for a beautiful partner to share love with.
There is still the feeling of vulnerability
that comes with such deep sharing,
and the fear that I will never be met
the way I long to be met.
There is still the exhaustion one feels
being the only adult in the house
with two very active children
who still don’t know
how to pick up after themselves.
Yes, all of these things still exist,
as I am a human woman
living on this earth.
But if I can drop a little deeper
below the surface of the mind
that is always problem-solving
and strategizing,
I arrive at a place where all is well.
It is such a beautiful place.
And this is why I practice.

NaPoWriMo 2020 Day 7

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Well, it looks like I should start giving myself a limit on time spent on the NaPoWriMo site. Between yesterday’s prompt and today’s, I probably spent two good hours poring over the linked content. Yesterday’s Bosch painting really sucked me in, but so did today’s bizarre news with catchy titles. And of course that led me down another rabbit hole! I’m going off prompt today…
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It’s good enough just to breathe.
Bonus points for bathing.
Bonus points for dressing up like you’re going to work…
But it’s totally understandable
if all you want to do is stay in bed.
Sometimes I feel that way too.
Just remember that you deserve your own kindness,
gentleness and understanding.
Remember that you aren’t alone,
even when you’re feeling lonely.
Be generous with your praise;
everybody needs some kindness
right about now.
Mostly, just trust…
Trust that everything will turn out ok.
It will, you know…
Everything will turn out just fine.

Honesty

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C’mon, admit it to me—

You weren’t in love with the routine anyway!

You ritualistically grumbled

At the dawn of each new day

And resented the tasks asked of you.

C’mon, be honest, admit it—

You didn’t have much to lose!

Only your attachment to control,

Your belief in an uncaring universe,

Your inability to recognize how blessed you were.

Let’s be frank with one another.

This whole global pandemic is a gift!

It’s an opportunity to slow down and see

The lies you were telling to you

The lies I was telling to me.

Seriously.

Listen closely to me.

THIS IS AN OPPORTUNITY.

An opportunity to be free.

To slow down and see what really matters to you.

What really matters to me.

Slow down, beloved. Breathe.

It’s all good, you see?

Where It Matters Most

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There’s some part of me
that chronically resists
some aspect of the present moment.
You’d think after all this time
I’d realize
that resistance doesn’t help.
But the part that resists
is an unconscious part
that runs silently in the background,
always prompting me to see
all things
exactly the same way,
to keep it routine
to keep it familiar.
I can’t stop it
because most of the time
I’m completely unaware of it.
The practice is now
maintaining enough awareness
of my awareness
that I can keep some awareness
where it matters most.

Breath of the Cosmos

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I keep reminding myself to breathe

a little more deeply

to soften my belly

and open my heart

and trust in this moment

My mind wants to learn a new way

where relaxation is the norm.

My body remembers some ancient trauma

that my grandmother’s grandmother’s grandmother remembered

and it needs to be convinced

that it’s safe to relax.

This opening into being has no beginning and no end, only limitless bliss for those

brave enough to walk the path.

May I be blessed with courage to allow Spirit

to express its fullness through me,

serving love in open hearted devotion,

relaxed into the deepest breath of the cosmos.

Gratitude Day 39 of 49: Celebrate

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A gathering of beautiful friends
brings me back to a natural rhythm,
closer to my true nature, more authentic.
Food prepared consciously
nourishes our bodies and souls.
Sitting with beloveds and sharing a meal
attunes us collectively to our shared visions.
Moving into a mode of celebration
opens our eyes to the abundance that is here now,
opens our hearts to the recognition
that it is a gift to be alive.
I choose to move towards
those who are willing
to recognize the good in their lives.
Those who give thanks
are way more fun to be around
than those who can’t see
any reason to be grateful!
I’m glad to be one of the happy ones
who chooses to see the good in life.
I am blessed to openly celebrate
how wonderful it is to be alive.

Gratitude, Day 36 of 48: Healing

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One day he said, “I want a divorce”

and went down to sleep in the basement.

I thought I would die.

I didn’t.

I lost sleep, I lost weight.

He moved out.

He introduced our children to his girlfriend.

I thought I would die.

I didn’t.

I asked why God would let me suffer.

I worked hard.

I secured a rental home in my kids’ school district.

I kept praying and meditating.

I want it to get easier.

I want the healing to go faster.

It won’t.

Life takes its time.

Healing takes its time.

My job is to surrender now.

All I Have

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Hey, Inner Critic,
it’s time we had a chat.
You see, you can stop
telling me I have to figure it all out,
because
no one has it all figured out.
We’re all in a process of becoming.
So stop it already with the pressure,
and the anxiety, and the belief
that I have to be more, do more, have more.
When I’m free of you for just a moment,
it’s actually quite pleasant.
I can breathe and feel free in this moment,
all I ever have.