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I’ll Be Here

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Miracles are everywhere.
How many you experience
depends entirely
on how open you are.

I feel so closed.
I don’t know how to be open.


Can you breathe?

Yes.

Well then, let’s breathe.
You’ll open naturally
if you breathe.

This is taking too long.
Where are the miracles?

Ah. I see.
Your impatience is what blocks you.
You must trust
with all your heart.

Trust? Why should I trust?
Nothing ever works out in my life.

Ah. Is that true, my friend?
Nothing works out?

Nothing.

Well, I can’t convince you otherwise.
Maybe I can’t help you after all.
Who am I to talk you out of your misery,
when you fight with every fiber of your being
to keep it close to you?

Let’s talk again
when you’re ready to be happy.
You’ll have to die first though.

Die?


Yes. Die.
You’ll have to die
to who you thought you were
so that you can be reborn
to who you might be.
But you must be brave.
Most won’t tolerate such an initiation.
Let me know when you’re ready.
I’ll be here.

True Power, True Wisdom

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There are some inescapable facts in life:
We will die some day.
Aging and loss are inevitable.
Sickness arises and we can do nothing
except resign ourselves to wait
until it shifts.
Yes, misery happens–
but we don’t have to make ourselves
more miserable
denying this fact.
There is a way to greet
all of these painful experiences
as powerful allies
on our path to awakening.
First we must stop expecting
to escape the inescapable,
believing that old lie
that we can somehow avoid pain and sorrow
and just feel good all the time.
When we drop that storyline,
we can breathe into a more open, curious place
calling forth the witnessing self,
settling into this moment as it is.
Now we have the space in our minds
to learn what each experience
has come to teach us.
This is true power.
This is true wisdom.

A Love Letter From My Emotional System

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Dear Lorien,

See? Now your husband is upset with you. You might as well give up on writing, yoga teaching, and meditating, because this quest to find yourself is ruining your marriage. Just who do you think you are? Do you need a reminder?

Let us remind you of a few things:

1)You are not allowed to be happy. Any steps you take in this direction will ruin your chances of finding closeness with the people in your life. So suck it up, and do what they want, because otherwise you’ll end up lost and alone.

2)You don’t have any creative talents or abilities. Any thoughts stating otherwise are pure delusion. If you persist in thinking that your sadness has a root, and that this root may be the unmet need to create, then you will be placed on mind-altering medication. You will proceed to take this medication for the rest of your life. Stop trying to create, it won’t help anything…it will only make things worse.

3)You are not lovable. Any attempts to gain the love and support of any being, whether family, friend or stranger, whether plant or animal, will backfire and cause more pain. Get used to being lonely. There is something inherently repulsive about you, and people can sense it. Don’t try to get too close to anyone, you will only end up disappointed. They will desert you once they see you for who you really are.

4)You are only allowed to work for the benefit of others, and only as long as you feel resentful and bitter while you’re doing it. Ask everyone around you what you’re supposed to be doing, and follow their prescriptions for your work. You are not allowed to think for yourself. Thinking may give rise to feelings, and all feelings lead to depression, hopelessness and misery. Put your nose to the grindstone and do what you are told.

5)Stop meditating. You haven’t made progress in the nearly 900 days that you have been practicing, so why keep trying? Can’t you see that this time you take for yourself is driving a wedge between you and your husband? He needs you. He needs you to be who he wants you to be. So don’t write any more blog posts, and don’t meditate. Instead, you must sit on the couch and watch Top Gear, Pawn Stars, Chasing Classic Cars, and How It’s Made. You must focus all of your attention on him as he watches TV. You are here to make him happy. This is your function. If he is unhappy, you have failed. You better change right now, or your marriage will be further jeopardized.

6)Above all, remember that we need you to be miserable, so don’t do anything that makes you happy. We do not tolerate rebels here. If you choose to revolt, you will be destroyed.

Feel free to contact us with any questions you may have regarding the contents of this letter; we would be happy to clear up any ambiguities. And we would especially love to keep you awake at night to remind you  over and over again that you are destined to be miserable for the rest of your life. If we prevent you from sleeping, good! You don’t deserve to rest.

Love,

Your Emotional System