I’m tired but I’m breathing like I mean it,
writing my gratitude,
really feeling it.
I’m unsure of my path
but I keep walking it,
living my life,
leaning into it, deepening.
Nothing is what it seems;
I dive deeper,
and this moment unfolds as a dream.
I marvel at how
everything is extraordinary
and everything is ordinary
all at once.
This doesn’t have to make sense.
Loosening the ties that bind me
to an old, outdated mode of being,
learning to breathe deeply and slowly
and really see how unique this present moment is,
seeing how life has always provided me what I need,
and trusting that it always will,
it all becomes so simple.
Life isn’t meant to be figured out, dissected,
overburdened with assigned meaning—
but one breath, one step, one moment,
one day at a time,
life is meant to be lived.
is burning in your heart,
searing your mind,
waking you up at night?
Are you willing to feel the question
with every fiber of your being?
Are you willing to live with
your yearning for an answer?
Are you willing to sit with the uncertainty
for as long as it takes,
as many days, weeks, months, years
as it will take
to live your way into the answer?
This is the path of the heart-strong warrior.
Are you willing to walk this path?
I must warn you
it doesn’t get easier.
As your practice deepens
so do the questions.
At some point you’ll be holding the entire universe
inside your heart asking yourself,
What did I get myself into now?
You’ll see that you are alone in this question
with no safe place to run or hide
and no one to keep you company,
not even the wind.
If I could snap to perfection,
If I could skip the journey and
just land in paradise,
Would I refuse to
climb the mountain,
if I knew I could be plunked
right at the top?
Could I enjoy any success
if I didn’t work for it?
Whatever it takes to awaken,
this is what I will do,
and this I swear to you:
I will do what needs to be done,
hear what needs to be heard,
speak what needs to be spoken,
write what needs to be written,
build what needs to be built,
heal what needs to be healed,
love what needs to be loved,
forgive what needs to be forgiven,
release what needs to be released,
receive what needs to be received,
create what needs to be created.
I give thanks for the teachers, mentors,
wise ones and guides
who always show me the way
as I am ready to receive their guidance.
I am grateful for my fellow travelers,
forever reminding me that
I do not walk this path alone.
I’m going to choose my way
instead of having another
humanoid choose for me.
Or better yet,
why don’t I let the power
of the Universe choose for me?
Oh that’s right,
the power of the universe
is within me.
I’m going to gravitate
toward that which feels good,
that which invigorates, renews,
and gives me the experience
of living in the direction of my destiny.
I’m going to trust my intuition to guide me.
I’m going to allow the blossoming,
as naturally as the spring
always returns after winter.
Still searching for the book
that has the answers…
I search in
ooks on self-love,
books on forgiveness,
books on leadership,
I read and I read and I read.
I keep searching
for that one piece of information
that will save me.
Then it occurs to me,
Maybe the book I need to read
is the one I need to write.