You’ve come a long way baby! You were scared to live without him and then he left. You thought you were going to die, but you didn’t. You were terrified you wouldn’t find a new home, and then you did. You weren’t sure you could make ends meet, but you have, month after month after month. Just look at you go, sweetheart! See how it all works out? From my perspective, you’re a superhero. And…I LOVE YOU.
I’m a writer, have been since elementary school. I’m grateful I can wield my pen and my words and my voice intentionally, and share what’s going on with me in a way that engages others to share their stories with me. I’m grateful I was taught to read and write. I’m grateful I can create worlds in my mind and assign words to the worlds in a way that will paint vivid pictures in your mind. Words are power, like wind is power, and fire is power, and water is power, and love is power. May the fact of my sharing help one person know that they aren’t alone. May these words written from my heart reach out into the world and make it a more loving place!
Let’s imagine that everything you’ve lived until now was a dream, and suddenly, you’ve awoken, and realized you were sleeping. You finally can see that everything you’ve ever lived is your own dream creation, and as the Creator of this dream existence you’ve also constructed the ideas of “right” and “wrong.” Let’s further imagine that upon recognizing that you’ve awoken, you find it quite funny how you believed that “right” and “wrong” actually existed. Now that you know there is no such thing, suddenly, you take a deep breath and relax, realizing that peace, too, is your creation.
I choose to feel good. Even though I was programmed by people who were programmed to believe that life is a struggle and there is never enough good, today I choose to exist in the possibility that I can feel good most of the time. Even though I’ve made lots of mistakes, even though I don’t have all the answers, even though I’m not sure of my future, I choose to feel good. I can feel grateful for my past; it brought me to this now. I can feel grateful for this now; it is holding me and giving me this opportunity to awaken. I can awaken to my power to choose how I think and act and feel. Today, I choose to feel good.
Choosing clarity over comfort and service over self-indulgence, knowing that short-term pleasure eats into long term success… I think about what makes a leader a leader. Beyond the roles we play and the hats we don, what is our true identity? The moment we breathe slowly and deeply we enter into the field of presence that was never given and can never be taken away. I look up to anyone who can enter this field and show me how to arrive there without tricks or gimmicks, without bypassing or denial. If I cannot find such a one to lead me, I must become a leader myself. And in today’s world, rife with chaos, fraught with trauma, I think that this is precisely what Life is asking all of us to do.
Industry. Productivity. Recommitting to creating a financially sustainable livelihood doing what I love. Being willing to go the distance, to pay whatever the price to live a life in alignment with who I am at the center of my being. I care not for the opinions of those who settle for mediocrity; they cannot help me. I will not ask for permission to walk this path of living heartfelt into my divine destiny. My clarity is my gift to myself. I don’t need to change what I feel and I am no longer afraid of what arises from my depths to be seen and heard and embraced like never before. Tomorrow isn’t guaranteed, so I live this day as if it is my last, heartfelt, walking my path of divine destiny.
Whatever you focus on you will experience. It’s that simple. Focus on joy, you will be joyful. Focus on anger, you will be angry. Focus on depression, you will be depressed. If you find yourself in a place you don’t want to be, Ask yourself, “How do I want to feel?” and think about the conditions that would evoke that feeling. Our imaginations can be used to create or destroy, to heal or to harm, to inspire or deflate. It all comes down to your attention, and your choice.*
*Just to clarify, I’m not saying it’s easy. In fact, training the mind to focus is one of the most challenging feats a human can perform. But it IS simple. If you choose, you can tune into your power and decide how you want show up in the present moment. If enough people decide that they want to show up as peace, we’ll create a peaceful world.
It’s a blessing to have work I love, a blessing to have enough of this work to earn the income I need to empower myself to move forward. It’s a blessing to know that the work I do benefits others, and leaves me feeling a deep sense of satisfaction and fulfillment. I GET PAID TO DO WHAT I LOVE… this is a miracle. As I dive deeper into my work, and bring greater value to my clients and the companies for whom I work, and as I am told about the positive impact I’m having on the lives of those I touch, I am driven to keep going. This month has been a marathon, 2-3 classes every day, no days off. My body is tired and yes, there is a part of me that would love a vacation… And yet, to be blessed with work I love, to have the Universe present me with this opportunity for gainful employment, to create independence as a single mother providing quality life for my children and myself, this is true success, true wealth, true progress. And truly, I am grateful.
When my happiness depends on the actions of others I’ve given my power away. When my peace depends on certain conditions being met I’ve given my power away. When I rely on someone else to help me to feel a certain way I’ve given my power away. When I believe I need something from someone in order to move forward I’ve given my power away. I gave my power away too many times. Now it’s time to call it back.
Something has changed. I don’t feel so stuck. I’ve chosen to stop listening to the old programming, and replace it with something better. I have to be vigilant. If I don’t watch it, the same old stuff will come cropping up, fill my consiousness, and make me miserable: You’re not good enough. Your life is a mess. You’ll never be happy. You’re a failure. When I start to hear that stuff (it usually begins the moment I wake up) I listen to my affirmations app, or The Quote of the Day Show Podcast, or I repeat this new mantra out loud: I am immune to the opinions of others, positive and negative. I am neither greater nor lesser than anyone else. I am fearless in the face of challenges. Yes, I am choosing to rigorously reprogram my mind. Little by little, day by day, I’m starting to feel okay about myself and my life. Even if there are some unknowns about my future. Even if there are some unresolved questions in my heart. Even if I sometimes mess up… I choose to live my life as an adventure, a life that no one has ever lived before. This is my life. I choose to live it on my terms.