When the tethers of the predefined rendition of everyday, 3-D existence are momentarily loosened and my vision is freed, I can see that the ordinary everyday consciousness that we have leaves out more than it takes in.* And my prayer is: Reveal to me the truth that I may embody for the highest good of all beings. And I remember breathing is enough. So I breathe and my consciousness returns to the place I love to be, the reason I practice… the vast universe within.
I fell out of the loop for a moment, caught in a swirl of perfectionism. Suddenly I remembered that it’s not about being perfect, it’s about showing up authentically in the perfection of this moment… and so I came back.
Trust…this ability to have no idea what’s happening next but going ahead and trying anway. Today I had a chance to practice trust as I created a painting. Two years ago I had a chance to practice trust as my marriage fell apart. Every day I have the opportunity to trust the process of life. I give thanks to the teachers, mentors and guides who have shown me that it’s safe to let go and trust. May you trust the inherent wholeness of your life!
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Well, I did it again! Returning home this afternoon after teaching two yoga classes; my music director neighbor was outside and mentioned a choral concert he was conducting at a church downtown, one hour after my evening workshop was finished. I think I can make it, I told him. But I may be kind of blahhhhh; I’ve had a busy weekend. Well, he said, We’ll see ya when we see ya! I taught my workshop, and my impulse was to go straight home and once again feel lonely and sorry for myself. Don’t go to the city the anxious one in me said, You’ll have to worry about parking and you’re a women by herself at night. I made myself go. I forced myself. I found parking not far from the church, arrived early, found a seat in the front row. The music was so beautiful I cried. Afterwards I gave my neighnor a hug, thanked him for the invitation. Home now, freshly showered, safe and warm, I’m so grateful I didn’t listen to the anxious voice telling me not to go. I think I’m on a roll!
It’s amazing what can happen when you get over yourself and try something new. I made myself get out tonight, even though a part of me just wanted to stay home and feel lonely and depressed. I made myself get out tonight to attend the yoga studio holiday party. I took the staff yoga class, and ate some yummy vegan food; I even won a gift card in a raffle! I sat and ate, and multiple people actually sat down next to me and talked to me! It felt good to connect. It felt good to be out, to be in the presence of kind souls making merry. Yes, it’s amazing what can happen when you get over yourself and try something new.
I wake up gently before the sun and my first thought is Thank you. Thank you for another day on this planet. I am excited for the possibilities of this day. I remember my children will meet their teachers. I remember I have laundry to do. I remember that I need to start packing up this house. I remember that this can all wait until I sit, and check in with the Source, the consciousness within me that spins out all of these perceptions and weaves them together to create the experience of a single mother waking up to greet another day. If I am right with the One within, then my day will flow with beauty. I am grateful for this time. I remember that although I have a body I am not simply this body. Or this mind. Or these circumstances. I am Spirit, clothed in form, and the degree to which I can remember and stay present is the degree to which my light will shine to illuminate the form in which I move and breathe and express, the degree to which my circumstances will be illuminated, my choices made clear, my committment firmed, my conviction made manifest in action. And so, first things first. I wake up, and I sit. And it is good.
We’re born, we die, in the blink of an eye. Might as well enjoy our time here. Might as well train in creating and expressing joy so that this world is a brighter place for our having passed through here. Are you willing to take responsibility for your own experience? How could you feel empowered otherwise? Are you willing to wake up to what is truly yours and leave me to handle what is truly mine? If just a few of us did this we could create heaven on earth in no time…
It won’t feel like it’s mine unless I’ve worked for it, and so the Universe is giving me a chance to work. I can feel my old thinking crop up sometimes, especially now, when I feel tired in body and mind and I’m longing for quiet and rest. Old thoughts come back, about deserving better, about wishing it had gone differently, outraged about circumstances beyond my control. But I’ve been practicing. I’ve been practicing day after day I’ve been practicing hard. And my new thinking responds to the old and says: You don’t HAVE to do this, you GET do to do this. You aren’t a victim, you are a powerful woman who has been given an opportunity to step into her power and love herself back to health. You are a fortunate woman who has been led to wake up to the beauty of the present moment and express her gifts, talents and abilities in service of all beings. You are a work in progress, you’ll never be done, so keep working, woman, keep working.