Awakening to this day, I realize this is the only day. Breathing in this moment, I realize this is the only moment. Oh glorious freedom! I don’t need to lament the past or fear the future, because past and future are constructs of my mind— all that exists is NOW, everything happens in this one beautiful moment. Let us breathe deeply, together, then— let us awaken together. Let us feel this freedom together, on this day, in this moment, breathing this one breath. Peace.
Part of navigating this whole time of uncertainty has been learning how to let go of expectations and go with the flow. I know, I know… I’m not saying anything new or earth shattering, but it’s new for me to let go of control and just accept this moment as it is. I am not complacent, don’t get me wrong— I still have preferences, ideas, desires, wishes— but the difference is, I’m practicing welcoming what is here in this moment, and choosing how to respond from a place that is deeper than what my ego thinks it wants or deserves. I’m glad to know that this is a practice, because I’ve been trying so long to be perfect, and it’s just exhausting, so exhausting, trying to get everything right. Now, I’ll just breathe. I’ll take a slow deep breath, and I’ll give thanks. I’ll give thanks for this moment, this one moment of my life.
Hey friends. I’m late to the game, catching up on the last few days. I liked the prompt for day 8 over at the NaPoWriMo site, which included links to multiple Twitter accounts that focus on the work of individual poets and which send lines of their poetry (Poetry Bots!) into the universe. ❤️🌈❤️🌈❤️🌈❤️🌈❤️🌈❤️🌈❤️🌈❤️🌈❤️🌈❤️
Poem Beginning With a Line By Sylvia Plath
I am not ready for anything to happen. I am not ready for anything not to happen. I am, quite simply, not ready. Not ready for life or for death. Not ready for sickness or for health. Not ready for a Pandemic. Not ready to go back to “normal.” I am not ready, but I can still breathe. Yes. I’ll breathe in now. Yes. I’ll breathe out now. I guess I’m ready for something. I’m ready to breathe.
Just breathe. Just relax. Look around you. This moment. Don’t try to figure it all out. The moment is always changing, and the understanding you have now is different from the one you will have tomorrow. It is enough to just be who you are. It is enough to just breathe. This moment. Look around you. Just relax. Just breathe.
There’s some part of me that chronically resists some aspect of the present moment. You’d think after all this time I’d realize that resistance doesn’t help. But the part that resists is an unconscious part that runs silently in the background, always prompting me to see all things exactly the same way, to keep it routine to keep it familiar. I can’t stop it because most of the time I’m completely unaware of it. The practice is now maintaining enough awareness of my awareness that I can keep some awareness where it matters most.
I’m learning how to simplify… I can’t anticipate what’s next, but I can be here now. I can’t know what will happen tomorrow, but I can attend to what needs to be done today. I can’t know if my friends will be in my life forever, but I can love who they are right now. I can practice this willingness to stay in the simple present moment so that when the time comes, I can simply let go, simply let go.
When we aren’t trying to get somewhere else or do something else or be someone else or feel something else We might just pause long enough to realize that where we are and who we are is actually pretty great.
I choose to feel good. Even though I was programmed by people who were programmed to believe that life is a struggle and there is never enough good, today I choose to exist in the possibility that I can feel good most of the time. Even though I’ve made lots of mistakes, even though I don’t have all the answers, even though I’m not sure of my future, I choose to feel good. I can feel grateful for my past; it brought me to this now. I can feel grateful for this now; it is holding me and giving me this opportunity to awaken. I can awaken to my power to choose how I think and act and feel. Today, I choose to feel good.
Hey, Inner Critic, it’s time we had a chat. You see, you can stop telling me I have to figure it all out, because no one has it all figured out. We’re all in a process of becoming. So stop it already with the pressure, and the anxiety, and the belief that I have to be more, do more, have more. When I’m free of you for just a moment, it’s actually quite pleasant. I can breathe and feel free in this moment, all I ever have.