And one day,
all of the searching will be over.
This will be the day
you stop looking outside of yourself.
You will sit down,
close your eyes,
and see that the answers
to your heart’s deepest yearning
were within you all along.
What a beautiful day that will be.
for things to get better,
to be clearer,
to be easier.
Then I’m afraid…
because they’re not changing,
or I’m not changing,
and reality keeps reminding me
that waiting for a problem to solve itself
won’t get the problem solved.
What is the proper action to take,
when your whole world falls apart,
and you’re living in a hologram of the past?
I can see everything as it was,
four ghosts sitting around the dinner table,
blurs of movement
out of the corner of my eye
from events that took place years ago.
The reality is,
I’m just by myself tonight,
the house is quiet,
and my two children
are with the man who used to be my husband.
But sometimes it feels like he is still here.
Sometimes I expect my children
to run up to me,
to call out to me,
even though I know they’re not here.
It’s eerie, the way the mind plays tricks.
Help me, Great Spirit,
help me return to what is real.
Let me do what needs to be done.
No more waiting;
I’m ready to live again.
You read that right,
As in, if my soon to be ex-husband
and I manage to collaborate tomorrow
we will reach some sort of resolution,
and this part of the saga will be over.
Please pray for me to be clear,
stay open, and breathe.
I want to move forward.
I want this to be over.
So I will bring my meditation
I’ll breathe and pray while I wait.
I’ll breathe and listen
before I answer.
If I can meditate during mediation,
I can meditate anywhere.
Anybody who prays, sends good vibes, visualizes or otherwise believes in the possibility of something existing beyond 3D reality:
Please hold me in your heart and in your thoughts and prayers as much as you can tomorrow, Monday, November 26, 2018, from 10AM EST on. Best prayer: Lorien, breathe. Best visualization: Me, my children and my soon to be ex-husband happy, healthy, peaceful and at ease, striking a good life balance. Any and all prayers and good vibes are welcome. Thank you in advance!
I keep searching and searching for meaning.
I want to understand.
I think I’ve found something,
and the understanding melts away
to reveal still more questions
a deeper search, an endless journey.
Could I embrace the process of becoming?
Could I stop asking myself to arrive
and instead be content with each small step?
In the infinite realm of possibility
that is this Universe,
there is no end point,
just a constant cycling and recycling
of energy and experiences.
Even death is just another beginning.
So can I let go of the story
that I need some neat, tidy resolution
to the life I’ve lived thus far,
and simply love and embrace
the life I’m living right now?
New year, SAME you.
Because the you
you’ve always been
is good enough,
so why would you want
a new one?
Plus, how could you possibly
have a NEW you?
Are you going to clone yourself?
I think not!
You were born YOU,
and YOU you will always be.
So let’s celebrate the New Year,
and the same you.
Because you’re awesome already,
and you deserve to be celebrated.
Here’s the secret:
You don’t need to do anything to be worthy.
You don’t have to change something,
or prove something
to be worthy of being here.
You were born,
and here you are,
I dare you to
trash those resolutions,
take a deep breath,
throw your arms open wide
“HIP HIP HOORAY, I’M ME!”
doesn’t it feel good?
Dedicated to fellow yoga teacher Pack Your Mat, who wrote this post about embracing yourself and your body just as you are, and dumping the ideas that you have to change anything at all about yourself as you enter this new year. LOVED IT.
If I had to choose a resolution,
it would be this:
to breathe more deeply today
than I did yesterday.
to remember to consciously breathe
or taking action of any kind.
to stop trying so hard
to improve myself.
to free myself
from the prison of self-improvement
so that I can have the space to dance
with the beauty,
the utter joy that is
my true self,
the self that you are,
the self that we are all together,
the self that is perfect oneness
in this moment
Most New Year’s resolutions
come from a thought
like this one:
There is something
wrong with me
that I need to fix.
With our negative self talk,
we obscure the light of our awareness
like clouds obscure the sun from our eyes
Instead of a resolution,
how about a Sankalpa?
is a vow and a
we make to support
our highest truth.
We discover our sankalpa
in our yoga practice
when we quiet our minds
and become absorbed
in a state of pure being,
we remember our deepest selves
in this relaxed state,
our heartfelt desires
I am that
which I am seeking.
I can relax
as I awaken
to my true nature.
Which do you choose, my friend?