What calls you out of your cave and into the light of day? What wakes you up from darkest night and opens your eyes to the morning light? What keeps you going when you want to give up and give in? What gives you the reason you need to take one more step, more more breath? Whatever IT is, spend some time giving thanks, so that IT knows you’re grateful.
If you knew this current trial, this set back, this seemingly impossible situation were actually a great gift, handwrapped by Spirit, tied up with a bow and a lovely tag attached with your name on it— would you open it? If you knew that this gift when welcomed and fully accepted would lead you to your next level of self-expression— would you receive it? If you knew that this gift, although uncomfortable, painful and perhaps even detestable, were rendering you stronger, more capable, more competent, more confident, more courageous, more resilient and more intelligent— would you say Yes, please and Thank you? Let’s assume for one moment that everything suggested here is true… wouldn’t it be time for some gratitude?
The impediment to action advances action. What stands in the way becomes the way.
—Marcus Aurelius, 121-180 c.e.
I sit down to write and feel blocked because my open and honest expression might be twisted and used as evidence by the one I formerly trusted with my heart that there is something wrong with me. (That something wrong being that I’m a human going through a particularly tough time.) And so I embrace a sort of forced positivity, which cannot be all bad, right? I mean, for God’s sake, I have clean drinking water, on demand, water to bathe with, a toilet inside my house… This puts me in the top 20% of the world’s population. I have voting rights. I have my health. I have my mind. I have a college education. I have work that I love and two beautiful children and an opportunity to start over fresh every single blessed day. In essence, I’m being blocked from complaining, and this impediment to complaints advances my ability to celebrate what is working. This open and honest expression might also be twisted and used as evidence that there is someting wrong with me, but if this is the case, then it only reveals what is wrong with the reasoning faculties of the person doing the twisting and judging. Therefore, thank you, dear soul, for giving me cause to pause and go on a negativity diet. I shall grow fat with gratitude and grace.
Feeling grateful for
the men and women
who went before me
and paved the way
so that I could celebrate
and really know
the pleasure of my freedom.
I owe it to my ancestors
to become the best ME possible.
After their struggle,
after all they went through,
isn’t it wonderful to find myself here,
a roof over my head,
clothes on my body,
able to attend a party?
How fortunate am I
to have mentors, teachers,
elders, wise ones,
and our beautiful Mother
who has given us all life,
guiding me every day
to live into my destiny?
How fortunate just to be here
able to breathe.
There is nothing else but LOVE.
And then it hit me, My needs have always been met.
This is the truth.
How would I stand here before you
if my needs had not been met? I am alive, so obviously some key needs were met.
Any thought attempting to prove the contrary
is a sad story…and do I want to keep this story?
Or is it time for a new interpretation,
some blessedly new content?
It’s time to practice contentedness,
just see what’s working.
You will have plenty of reasons
to shout Hallelujah
from dawn until dusk
each and every day.
Life is good, after all.