When the tethers of the predefined rendition of everyday, 3-D existence are momentarily loosened and my vision is freed, I can see that the ordinary everyday consciousness that we have leaves out more than it takes in.* And my prayer is: Reveal to me the truth that I may embody for the highest good of all beings. And I remember breathing is enough. So I breathe and my consciousness returns to the place I love to be, the reason I practice… the vast universe within.
I was giving from an expectation of return, bemoaning what felt like an unending inequality. Until I gave from the joy of giving, I never quite knew what it was to be truly free.
It occurred to me finally that it wasn’t about some universal balance sheet where someone is keeping notes and the end result is a zero sum game… No, it’s about becoming the Universe that knows nothing but giving of itself as life begets life and love expands love and joy after joy opens into quiet peace, knowing that in this self-organizing Universe the totality of being expresses as wholeness, perfection, and the most valuable thing you can do for me is to receive my giving, generously.
When you woke up this morning, did you remember who you really are? Have you remembered yet today? If not, let me remind you, but first, S L O W L Y EXHALE ALL THE WAY, and then, S L O W L Y INHALE ALL THE WAY. There now, that’s better, isn’t it? ✨❤️✨ You are pure consciousness in a physical body standing on a tiny blue dot in the middle of infinite space. You are a single cell on that blue dot, a subatomic particle of the atom in which you live, and yet your consciousness is bigger than the universe. Can you open in awareness of this vastness? Can you feel out to the farthest reaches of space, can you sense into the urge to expand forever? Can you take on the awareness of a star, burning in your desire to express your light? Can you spin the way a planet spins, can you feel its mass, and can you sense the momentum it has attained in its embrace of the cosmic dance? And YOU, how about your embrace? You are the center of the universe, did you know that? You are, in this very second, entirely surrounded, held, seen, known, loved and cherished by the force that created you (and you can call it what you want!) You are sovereign in your center, holding the consciousness of the cosmos. Now that you’ve remembered that the entire universe is yours to command, what now will you do?
I’ve been searching for something out there,
sometimes catching a whiff of its fragrance
in the wind.
It would render me melancholy
to sense it but experience it
so far away,
when my heart longed for this thing
I could not know.
Sometimes it was a rush of cold air
into my nostrils
as I stepped from my grandmother’s house
into the winter night
and I’d search for the star
in the dark blue sky
that told me the light
was returning soon.
For the longest time
I feared the magic and suppressed it
much to my heart’s dismay.
The whole world seemed cold and dark
and I was trapped in a prison
of my own making.
Spirit came to rattle me out of my cage
and throw me into the light of day.
Such a fool I was,
resisting a project of God’s hand.
How can I stop the ocean from surging?
How can I move the sun in the sky?
How can I make the moon glow brightly?
How can I give the gift of new life?
I only experience these things
because consciousness pours through me.
Who made this consciousness,
the perceiver and the perceived?
My body speaks clearly.
Its language is believed.
I trust the longing in me now.
The magic in me swells alive within.
I open the door to the cold and dark everywhere
and catch its beloved fragrance on the wind.
And then, synchronously,
the Universe responded
to my questions about giving.
I listened to a motivational speaker
who was suddenly talking about generosity
and keeping the circle of giving intact.
He said that everyone can give something,
to not wait to see yourself as “rich”
before you give.
He quoted Khalil Gibran: You give but little when you give of your possessions. It is when you give of yourself that you truly give. I cried.
I cried to hear the truth.
I cried to be so seen
by this loving Universe
that would send me answers
so soon after I asked the questions.
And today I was sent multiple opportunities
to give spontaneously, from my heart.
It felt good. It felt right.
I felt like I was living my destiny.
teach me more about love.
When you welcome
the Universe as lover
you dare not be choosy—
you want it all!
And rightfully so,
to say yes to some of it
and no to the rest
means that you don’t
accept the whole Universe.
It means that you’ve
held yourself apart
from some precious
a joy hiding inside a lesson.
Scrub the toilet
with the same
excitement you feel
when you kiss
your beloved’s cheek.
Everything becomes joy
when the whole Universe
is your lover.
The Universe is a jokester,
its arms lightly crisscrossing
doubled over in laughter
pointing at me…
bellowing bawdy guffaws AH HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA! Slapping its thigh,
so satisfied with itself.
Every time I think I get it,
I learned the lesson,
I figured it out,
something else happens,
and a big neon sign flashes
right in front of my eyes,
And I’m standing there,
mouth hanging open,
Looking so foolish.
And that’s how I figured
no one escapes from the game.
I could play smart
or I could play dumb
but I don’t get to sit out.
And the universe always
And what if you gave up all control?
What if you could trust the Universe
to take the lead?
What if you could open yourself
to the messages of spirit
and having received them,
put them into action?
Friends, there’s no time to be wishy washy.
Are you all in?
It is all so simple, really.
We see as much as we are ready to see.
We experience just as much
as we are capable of experiencing.
There is no limit to what we can
learn, make and do,
but we need motivation, desire, and courage
to find the strength necessary for expansion.
It means leaving the safe harbor
and setting sail into the unknown,
being willing to confront our own resistance
to stretching beyond what is familiar,
allowing ourselves to feel the fear of failure,
of looking foolish,
of making ourselves vulnerable—
and just going for it anyway—
knowing that just on the other side
of our comfort bubble there’s
a wide open universe waiting
for us to join it in this perpetual
dance of creation.
We spin out our thoughts
as the cosmos spins out new stars,
totally unaware of our magnificence.
Time to wake up and see what is ours,
to dance the dance consciously,
with joy, devotion, gratitude
and sheer delight!
For those who are feeling discouraged about their mindfulness practice…
You think this practice is all for naught?
You think you can’t see any results yet?
I tell you, every second matters,
nothing ever goes to waste,
it all counts.
Have faith, trust, believe.
Your binary mind cannot comprehend
the vastness of this Universe,
so why would you look at your practice
through the eyes of this mind?
Close your eyes
There are no words for what you find
when the eyes of your soul open and see.