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Upset, Setback, Reset

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I got upset this morning,
lost it with my kids,
felt guilty and ashamed.
I interpreted this event as a setback.
I spent some time wallowing in shame,
depression, the belief that I haven’t made
any progress at all.
Then I breathed.
Then the wisdom came.
I remembered that I’m human,
I make mistakes,
and now it’s time for a reset.
So I chose for the day to go better
from that point on.
I’m going in to the kids’ classes
for Valentine’s Day;
I’m going to help the kids celebrate,
make crafts, have fun.
I tied up some loose ends at home,
finished some projects that had been waiting.
No more dwelling in upset, in setbacks.
I’ve reset…now it’s time to keep moving forward.

Who Am I?

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Still hurting.
When will it stop?
Angry. Hurt. Lonely.
Tired. Overwhelmed. Triggered.
He’s finally moving out,
wanting to sort through
our years of life together,
our stuff.
I’m on edge.
I’m a caged animal,
hot, blinded with rage,
teeth bared, screaming,
throwing myself against
the bars of the cage,
hurting from the impact.
My thoughts are the cage.
My pain is the animal.
But who am I?

Dangerous Precedent

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Down in Costa Rica on vacation
where we were lucky to escape the inauguration
I hear some disturbing news from back home.
I hear that the “leader” of the US
has signed executive orders
to resume construction of pipelines
that will most likely endanger many, many lives
and to begin construction of a wall
designed to keep out the human beings south of us.
I hear that he wants to restrict Muslim visitors,
putting them on some kind of list,
oh, and…he has silenced government agencies
who are trying to keep us little people informed
of all of these goings on.
And the man who took an oath
to support our leader for the benefit of this country
and her people–
he rallied today to undo legislation
that has protected women’s rights
for decades.
I’m scared.
Should we stand mutely by
and let this happen?
Should we condone our leaders
taking actions that run completely counter
to our own moral and ethical codes?
That would be a dangerous precedent.